Japanese & Me
Jun. 24th, 2005 04:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
katekatWell, I didn't fail the written. Got a B. A stretching just over the top of 80% (by a couple of decimal points) B. We don't have results back from the oral exam, although I bombed it. Most of the time I'm fearless - I'll be the first one to speak up during class, I can stand in front of crowds all day, I have absolutely no problem with chalkboards, but occasionally... Occasionally I get the shaky, heart pounding, stomach churning reaction that means my ears shut up and my lips stutter.
Not a great place to be when I'm trying to pass an oral exam where I have to complete an exchange with my professor. Sadly, even on things that I knew (because I'd practiced the exchanges with Neil for almost an hour, then went and worked with someone else later) the night before, I blanked when she asked. More than once. More like often.
I was filled with dread yesterday - now it's tempered into a kind of resignation. If it was during the school year I'd be able to find a tutor to work with (great idea miss M - just unf. they're all gone for the summer). It's summer though, and tutors, like most of the student body, are probably countries away drinking hard and parting their asses off until they have to come back in fall. All this just means more practice for me, when I'm less inclined to do so because my performance is suffering. Yes, I know, it's a negative cycle.
And I'm on my own ... Neil's flown his fancy way to Vegas for the weekend, then LA for the rest of the week, so there's no excuse for not studying. (not that there was before, but ... I'm lazy. He always seems to find the best tv.)
The good part: only 1 more midterm and the final to go. The scary part: once I'm done with that, Japanese II, the *harder* class, starts the Monday after.
Not a great place to be when I'm trying to pass an oral exam where I have to complete an exchange with my professor. Sadly, even on things that I knew (because I'd practiced the exchanges with Neil for almost an hour, then went and worked with someone else later) the night before, I blanked when she asked. More than once. More like often.
I was filled with dread yesterday - now it's tempered into a kind of resignation. If it was during the school year I'd be able to find a tutor to work with (great idea miss M - just unf. they're all gone for the summer). It's summer though, and tutors, like most of the student body, are probably countries away drinking hard and parting their asses off until they have to come back in fall. All this just means more practice for me, when I'm less inclined to do so because my performance is suffering. Yes, I know, it's a negative cycle.
And I'm on my own ... Neil's flown his fancy way to Vegas for the weekend, then LA for the rest of the week, so there's no excuse for not studying. (not that there was before, but ... I'm lazy. He always seems to find the best tv.)
The good part: only 1 more midterm and the final to go. The scary part: once I'm done with that, Japanese II, the *harder* class, starts the Monday after.
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Date: 2005-06-24 10:04 pm (UTC)Oh, honey *squish* I want to say "it'll get easier, just hang in there." Altho' I know it doesn't feel like that at all.
How was Neil's flight? I was all busy yakking and forgot to ask *rolls eyes at self*.
Take care, but don't study too hard *petpet*
~e! (who will have to come up with an icon to match your new journal colours)
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Date: 2005-06-25 12:59 am (UTC)Neil's flight was good - he was going to go piff around Las Vegas since no one else had arrived yet ... hopefully he didn't loose too much money already. And don't worry, it wasn't a big deal!
I'm taking the night off from studying (yay!) and trying to string the internet into the living room so I can sit comfortably on the couch and photoshop.
And I might have a new Xander icon for you that will go with these colors... but I think the one you're using looks lovely too!
*hugs you*
me
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Date: 2005-06-24 10:22 pm (UTC)(does you a favor and swings a sledge into your TV) There. Much better.
-BJ
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Date: 2005-06-25 01:00 am (UTC)And thanks, but I'd probably have to kick your ass if you destroyed my devil box ... it owns my soul.
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Date: 2005-06-24 10:50 pm (UTC)*hearts and sparkles*
amo te. ♥
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Date: 2005-06-25 01:02 am (UTC)*hugs and loves*
and i'm hoping that's latin for love? maybe? yep, i'm totally inept at languages, even my own
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Date: 2005-06-25 04:44 pm (UTC)- Miranda