skattered shards
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katekatWe're watching the Bachelorette right now because that's what summer-TV has done to us. Except that I'm not, I'm actually enjoying fabulous ficcage at ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
summer_of_giles (it actually STARTED! It did!), from ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
elizabuffy to drsquidlove to kivrin. What a hell of a way to start off the summer!
This last week has sent me boomeranging from ok to not at all, from coping to hiding, from productive to utterly .... I won't say useless, but I actually reread books I've read time and time again that I actually decided weren't worth rereading. I felt as if I picked up the graphics paintbrush only to put it down time and time again. I'm trying to reach a balance and still feeling like a teeter totter.
Like yesterday - went and saw Sex in the City (which seems to not have made an appearance on the flist so you were all perhaps smarter than I ... I will hopefully get up the balls to do a tear-down of this film later, but it's sneaky poison, so beware). Left me in a weird weird mood. But coffee withlostgirlslair and the fiance and my darling was lovely, even if there was some bleed over. We hit our intellectual stride right at the end again, though, and I love four parts of a conversation that all come together. But then last night, getting home, I was back down again and not just emotionally but apparantly had some kind of sugar low so I spent half an hour almost convinced my emotional world was ending and the next two eating proteins and fruits and drinking apple juice to get my body balanced out. And of course I felt like I was going to pass out from fatigue at 11 pm, but went to bed and read anyway and ended up tossing and turning forever after I turned out the light, so that sleep came in fits and starts.
Despite that? Because of that? I was up at 8:30 am (hellishly early if you asked me) and out of the house by 9 to get myself coffee and be at my temp job by 10. They made me smile - it's a company filled with engineers, and it reminds me of the good old days at Feed the Monster Media when I was the girl who knew everyone (and answered the phones but did so much more than that besides). Geeky engineers offered me breakfast tacos and conversation. I'd brought my own granola bar though, so conversation was the only thing consumed. Then there was the satisfaction of showing up to the Center for Asian Studies this afternoon (after buying myself healthy lunch - no sense in courting disaster) and organized, organized organized. I got 300 emails down to 50, broke down and dealt with 5 boxes of ... leftover crap that had been taking up room in the office, and managed (I hope) to start to smooth the ruffled feathers of the woman who works the front desk and fancies herself a graphic designer. She was still condescending, but I think starting to thaw by the end of the day. Or not - I'm attempting to not care.
It was good, good without measure, to get out of the house and be doing something, not just living in the same physical and mental headspace of last week, of this house right now, and I'm looking forward to doing it again tomorrow. Except, dammit, part of me actually wants a summer vacation! (well, part of me feels like I should get one - but perhaps the mental vacation is pretty much the same thing)
summer_of_giles (it actually STARTED! It did!), from elizabuffy to drsquidlove to kivrin. What a hell of a way to start off the summer!This last week has sent me boomeranging from ok to not at all, from coping to hiding, from productive to utterly .... I won't say useless, but I actually reread books I've read time and time again that I actually decided weren't worth rereading. I felt as if I picked up the graphics paintbrush only to put it down time and time again. I'm trying to reach a balance and still feeling like a teeter totter.
Like yesterday - went and saw Sex in the City (which seems to not have made an appearance on the flist so you were all perhaps smarter than I ... I will hopefully get up the balls to do a tear-down of this film later, but it's sneaky poison, so beware). Left me in a weird weird mood. But coffee with
lostgirlslair and the fiance and my darling was lovely, even if there was some bleed over. We hit our intellectual stride right at the end again, though, and I love four parts of a conversation that all come together. But then last night, getting home, I was back down again and not just emotionally but apparantly had some kind of sugar low so I spent half an hour almost convinced my emotional world was ending and the next two eating proteins and fruits and drinking apple juice to get my body balanced out. And of course I felt like I was going to pass out from fatigue at 11 pm, but went to bed and read anyway and ended up tossing and turning forever after I turned out the light, so that sleep came in fits and starts.Despite that? Because of that? I was up at 8:30 am (hellishly early if you asked me) and out of the house by 9 to get myself coffee and be at my temp job by 10. They made me smile - it's a company filled with engineers, and it reminds me of the good old days at Feed the Monster Media when I was the girl who knew everyone (and answered the phones but did so much more than that besides). Geeky engineers offered me breakfast tacos and conversation. I'd brought my own granola bar though, so conversation was the only thing consumed. Then there was the satisfaction of showing up to the Center for Asian Studies this afternoon (after buying myself healthy lunch - no sense in courting disaster) and organized, organized organized. I got 300 emails down to 50, broke down and dealt with 5 boxes of ... leftover crap that had been taking up room in the office, and managed (I hope) to start to smooth the ruffled feathers of the woman who works the front desk and fancies herself a graphic designer. She was still condescending, but I think starting to thaw by the end of the day. Or not - I'm attempting to not care.
It was good, good without measure, to get out of the house and be doing something, not just living in the same physical and mental headspace of last week, of this house right now, and I'm looking forward to doing it again tomorrow. Except, dammit, part of me actually wants a summer vacation! (well, part of me feels like I should get one - but perhaps the mental vacation is pretty much the same thing)
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Date: 2008-06-03 04:04 am (UTC)I shall remember not to watch the S&tC movie. It sounds traumatic! Yay for coffee w/ LG, TF, and Neil, though.
I'm glad work seemed to go well. Although geeky engineers skeer me. ;)
Love,
~e!
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Date: 2008-06-03 04:33 am (UTC)and the movie was ... well, honestly like the series - probably the worst parts of the series but just like it - so if you were ok with that you'd be fine with this. but it did leave me with a bad taste in my mouth
and it did! geeky engineers are nothing to be afraid of - they're all afraid of girls anyway! :D
*squishes you to pieces*
k
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Date: 2008-06-03 04:35 am (UTC)And I can talk about geeky engineers being skeery because I love one dearly. :D
~e!
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Date: 2008-06-03 07:30 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-04 05:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-04 07:25 am (UTC)...Because I am all about talking about the squelchy? ;)
I have heard that they make Charlotte poop herself, though, and this does not to me recommend the 'comedy' elements of the film, thus making me nervous about going to see it!!
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Date: 2008-06-05 03:18 am (UTC)And i will spoil it for you if you like on your second comment, but let us just say the humor is not all about the poop all the time.
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Date: 2008-06-03 08:39 am (UTC)Did you notice that every single person of color in that film was there in a service capacity? That was my main observation. That, and that no writer except maybe Stephen King has that kinda money to blow, good God.
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Date: 2008-06-04 05:04 am (UTC)This was something that pretty much ran throughout the tv show, and I kind of expected that would be the case in the movie too, so was not totally surprised. The "assistant" casting was a little like a poorly thought out sop to those of us who notice and object to these things.
(and do you keep a separate blog on facebook? how do you find the time?)
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Date: 2008-06-04 08:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-05 02:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-03 01:59 pm (UTC)(pets your brain) You're amazing, you know that? :-)
-BJ
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Date: 2008-06-04 05:05 am (UTC)*pets you* NO, YOU ARE!
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Date: 2008-06-03 05:55 pm (UTC)Well, anyway, I'm sorry things have been such a rollercoster, lately. ::more hugs:: Hmmm, maybe we should do that movie night or game night or something this weekend? We're up for it, so it's up to you guys, and whether or not you have time this weekend. ::nods and more hugs:: I hope things go more smoothly and relaxy!
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Date: 2008-06-05 02:39 am (UTC)anyway, I'm actually at a coffee shop right now to give myself a time out from the stress at the house.
and i will talk to the muchkins tonight when i get back home, but i think that sounds like a great idea about the weekend! what night is better for you guys?
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Date: 2008-06-05 03:34 pm (UTC)Yeah for coffee shops!
Great! Ummm . . . let me talk to R and get back to you. I know my mom's coming over one day this weekend, but I can't remember which right now. ::looks sheepish:: *G*
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Date: 2008-06-05 05:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-06-05 05:29 pm (UTC)Don't worry, sweetie, you're in good companion. ;-) That's cool, next weekend is good for us! Next Saturday, then? Or would Sunday be better?
Oh! And are we doing coffee this Sunday?
::huge hugs:: I hope things at home calm down, sweetie. It's so tough to have tension where you go to relax. ::more hugs::
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Date: 2008-06-07 06:07 am (UTC)and things are a little better, which is good. but the inertia may get me yet - taking it one day at a time.
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Date: 2008-06-08 03:35 am (UTC)::huge, huge hugs:: I know it's been hard, sweetie, but hopefully it'll start getting better more quickly. ::more hugs::